Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Hamad dropped another bombshell on me. I think he wants a breakup. Again. This time if it happens, it will be the third time. I just don't understand why he wants to do this again. He don't want to make me suffer but doesnt he know that i AM suffering without him? I love him too much. No matter what he does i still love him. Am i blind? Only blinded by love for him. Haiz. Im crying again right now. I really want to start anew but he seems to really want it out. Is what Iskandar and Firdaus said is true? I really don't want to think of it. I don't know how to answer to his questions. I really don't want it to be over again. Cant he see that i really love him? I know he's busy and stuff. I understand. Iskandar wants me to break up with him. Firdaus finds our relationship right now as a joke. Am i not human? I love him. That's all for now. Im having a migraine and i really need to burst. All i know is, i'm happy to be in a relationship with someone i truly and only love. Despite what is said and done, i'll always will love you.
I wish you all the best for your term tests Hamad. Hope you pass.
the end.