Thursday, February 24, 2005
Its been tough lately. I'm sucked drained of energy. Deprived of any sleep or peace of mind. Getting crapy by the minute. Pissed off easily. I really need to get myself together. I need to be who i was before. The happy, cheerful and crazy girl that i was.
This week been a nightmare. I hardly slept a wink and even if i do, Hamad seem to come to my dreams EVERYTIME. It SUCKS! Really. Nuff said.
Results be out soon and i'm getting nervous. I really pray to God that i made it this time. Insyaallah. I just really wanna move on and learn more things. Go out and be successful in life and prove to people that i CAN!
Sometimes, i wish i had someone to be by my side and share everything that i feel and going through. A shoulder to cry on or someone to share my joy with. Each time i go out and see another happy couple, i cant help but feel like i too would like to be like that. Blame it on my loving and affectionate nature. But i know i wont be feeling that in a long long time.
Well, that's all i have to write. With that out of my chest, i hope i be fine in the next few days to come.
the end.