Thursday, July 28, 2005
Its been so long.. im caught up with school work and exams.. Alhamdulilah.. I scored rather well for my papers.. but will try harder.. If my classmate can do better than so can i.. A lot of things had happen.. Specially with my relationship with Hamad.. Things are just not good.. In a sense that we seem to quarrel quite a bit.. its.. ARGH!! I just get really mad.. I know that wont solve anything but i cant control it.. But im trying to be more patient with him.. Maybe my patience had already worn out with what he did to me. HAH! I did told him once that at times i find myself not loving him anymore.. sad..
well.. below are some msgs which i wanna keep but cant due to limitations on my phone..
7 June 05
1.24am
U are the one who happily told me u only mix with the guys in ur class.. So it matter more to u what ur friends think of u then what ur bf feels n think of u?
1.37am
That wasnt what u said, u said sumthing else da other time, never did u mention u were da only gurl in da grp for that day, u only say u only mix with the guys in ur class n u were damn happy about it..
1.50am
now i knoe damn wel why whatever u do is rite n doesnt matter as it is unsignificant to u n whatever i do matter more n are always wrong..
2.12am
sejak bile u pandai mengire ni? in the first that was nth going on btwn me n elma, raifana was nth..
2.13am
its hard n sakit hati with the fact that u label me even though out of the three time i broke up with u only once did i leave u for another girl, n u kalau boleh nak bilang satu dunia apa i buat n tak sabah2 nak humiliate me in front of ur friends, walaupun i tak buat anything wrong with a girl but becoz everyone seem to think so u pun agree, that is reason why i tak buat kwn ngan kwn2 u coz i tanak dgr whatever yg i tanak dgr n come to unwanted conclusion..
2.38am
only now u realise that u hurt me, kalau i tak bilang, it will go on n on.. its a little too late for apologies.. the damage have been done already..
8 June 05
12.32am
FYI, i regreted that yesterday happen but as ur bf i think i have a rite to know what is going on in ur life without being asked, even if asked i believe i should get a more detailed response rather than just a general statement, im ur bf for god sake not an aquaintance who couldnt care less about ur existance who just ask out of being nice,, im ur bf make use of me ok.. i dont want to be ur bf just by name..
13 June 05
1.55am
Kalau tiap2 mlm mc gini, i tak tahu brape lama lagi i can share with u my opinions on things if all i m going to get is a simple response rather than an honest opinion i tak tahu lagi brape lama our honesty policy can last.. Dahlah tak dpt jumpa, nak ajak berbual pun susah..
2.09am
Kan senang mc gitu, dahbis ceritakan. takya panjang lebah. Diyana, i dah kenal ngan cahre u buat kerje, i jgn nak sembunyikan apa2 dari i i takkan berhenti selagi i tak dgr dari mulut u sendiri.. i mengaku cahre i kisah, i minta maaf, tapi itu jer cahre yg i tau..
14 July 05
12.53am
i tak tahu wheather it is just me or that the guys who look u up are flirting with u openly or the fact that u're entertaining their advances, u still entertain azman, which u wouldnt dare to tell me anymore..
1.06am
ic.. wel, that wasnt what was written on ur blog. n that was the impression i got... i'm sorry for jumping to conclusion, its hard to decide what is the truth n not when i dont know anything n dont know the real u, everytime i tink i know u, i dont, i'm sorry, i'm trying my best to know u..
2.16am
not the first time u try to run away from a discussion by faking to be sleepy anyway..
2.32am
i'm sorry for everything.. i will always be there for u.. i love u.. :'(
15 July 05
1.44am
Hiaz.. Oklah, whatever u wantlah.. just to let u know that i would rather have a pain in the ass diyana for a day then a few days, if a matter can be solve in a day, why drag it? just food for tot there.. i'm not trying to find fault or push blame, im just trying to learn to live with u.. i'm really sorry for pissing u off n for whatever that have happen..lets just work things out k, dear? i'm sorry..
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