Monday, September 26, 2005
Its monday. A boring one. There's nothing fun to do. Argh! Cant wait for school to start. At least there's something to do. Anyway, got some msges to store, so bear with me.
22 Sept 2.52am
I know ur friends are impt to u, i'm just looking out for u, sedih i dgr u ckp mc gitu, sampai hati u.. Im trying to learn to lyk ur friends, u tak penah bagi i opportunity to do so, u broke my heart diyana, i tak sangka u would say that diyana...
2.20am
Tak semua kwn u i tak suke eh, only a few of them yg i tak suke, n ada yg i tak suke even b4 i stead ngan u... I try to lyk ur friends, i try ok, but u always tell me story how they mistreat u, sape yg suke matair dia to be mistreat?
21 Sept 1.00am
Up to u lah, i'm lost, i'm broken, i'm at the lowest pt in my life rite now, everything i do is against me, im stress out, u just do whatever u wantlah, u nak test me ke u nak apa ke, u buat lah, i dah hilang harapan, my life is worthless..
12.36am
Dont be.. ure rite.. Dont apologise for being rite.. what kind of a bf am i anyway when i'm a disappointment n forceful, i'm lousy n selfish that what i'm.. my own gf had to use my own feelings against me.. she doesnt deserve all this, she been gd to me, i'm really sorry, time for me to change...
19 Sept 1.29am
its okay.. even if there is pressure i aint telling, i dont want u to be pressure n i deserve all this, u takkan tahu how much i regretted breaking up, u can ckp apa2 yg u nak, tapi the kesal i feel u takan tahu, up to u to percaya, but i tahu my conscience is clear n i want to be with u, i will do anything..
4 Aug 11.47pm
Bab yg pendek ni dah curi hati i, dah menyambut sayang i dan cinta i...
11.59pm
Very sure.. Coz no matter how much u make me feel angry, frustrated, worried or sad , i still want to be with u, u're able to take all that feeling away with ur smile, u make me happy..
Messages to Hamad:
Ckplah ape u nak ckp. I dah takle take it. Mane nak layan karena mak i,u. Kalau susah sgt tinggalkan i je. Pegi cari lain yg boleh puaskan hati u. Bukan u tak penah buatkan.
Duh of coz not.. i wouldnt even be in dat relationship.. My fren is in a delima to accept ex dier ke tak.. She n me feel da same waylah abt this.. Dat we cant bring ourself to be in a relationship after knowing dat da guy had done even da smallest thing like kisssing with another girl or let alone share a kiss with da guy who had kissed someone else..
Yeah.. Bt i wont really bother if its not da same guy.. get what i mean? Like to me if it were da same guy, it be gross to kiss him.. Coz he had kissed sum1 else after me n den want to be back with me.. Bt it be a diff thing when i am over da guy n went out with another.. Becoz its sumthing new dats developed n dat deres no past to look at..
True it would hurt to noe bt noeing dat da one u really love had kissed another girl hurts even more.. Bcoz being with sum1 new opens a new chapter bt being with someone u were attached with b4 involves a past history u had together.. Its just harder to accept.. Bcoz most of da time u wouldnt want ur loved one to be shared by another..
the end.