Saturday, October 08, 2005
its OFFICIAL!! GUYS IN POLICE UNIFORM ARE HOT!!
well.. not that this statement hasnt been true for years but whoa! this time, i can gaze and drool over them. haha.. in fact, any guys in uniform are hot! no doubt abt that!
and then there's a day when i hated him so much.. for what he did to me.. i know this has been brought up a few times and its time for me to forget that but would anybody forget that kinda incident if it happened to them? i can bet that it be a NO! its sadlah coz u are trying to built up a new relationship and then the past is there to haunt u and makes u feel hatred.. its really sad.. normally it last for a day but still, hating someone u love just seems so wrong.. does it?
my sis and cuzzens were all asking me.. what the hell are you doing with him??! and i cant give them any answers.. all i do know is that i do have feelings for him eventhough there are many greater guys out there and that im still hurting with what he did.. but its like, even if i try to be in a new relationship with another guy, i cant.. coz for nearly close to 9 months ive been crying for this guy and maybe somewhat its shows that i really love him.. except that life is just a bit cruel that he left me for some (okay, shall not say the B word) 'girl' and whatever else..
but anyways.. like what the hell.. im looking forward to the future as much as i can.. i will stumble back to the past but i hope that what's in store for me in the future will be something greater than what i am having now..
jeez.. am i talking about him for the past 5 mins??
olrightos.. hmm.. well.. nothing much happened today.. i saw the car that i was drOOling about on my way to eastpoint to buy a handphone batt.. argh!haha! ive yet to take me driving license.. i shall so do so next week man.. with or without ellyas!! then made my way to tamp buying food back and walked home from tamp.. haha.. hmm.. from break fast till now, ive been staring in front of the comp with nothing to do.. maybe i'll watch a movie or something..
alright dudes!!
the end.