Monday, September 11, 2006
my dreams are wierd. too wierd to be told. i was listening to my sis iPod while trying to sleep when it played Shery Crow's First Cut is the Deepest. l found myself relating to that song. and how it has changed my feelings for him. the first breakup was said to be my fault. coz i was too upset with my results that i cant make him happy. it definately hurt me deep. as i lost my pillar of support to help me stand on my own two feet again. but i know i cant be selfish. for him to be unhappy with me. so after a while i let him go.
and i met someone new. someone who believed in me and never doubted my abilities or bring me down. he whom brought my smile back and whom i can be free to be who i am. i never admitted to have feelings for him till much later when i know from a friend of ours that he do. he was sweet and we have endless conversation till early morning. he was great company. but the possibility of us being together was none.
now we are back together. it has definately changes things quite a bit. but we will definately see where the relationship will bring us too.
the end.