Thursday, February 07, 2008
spent my night crying. didnt sleep a wink.
came back from tuition at ard 11pm. walked from pasir ris home. was tearing abit. in my mind was only one thing. him. alot of questions were running tru my mind.
reached home, did some random stuff then when everyone was asleep, i cried. frm 1plus. just kept crying. got breathless. but i cant stop crying. i thought i was going to die. felt like it too.
ive never felt like this before. i really wonder what i did wrong. have i? i havent seen or heard from him for months! sedangkan satu hari takle tahan, ni berbulan. seriously. i dun ask for much lah. i dun expect for luxury stuff or for u to meet me everyday. just a msg or a call to ask me how i am or to know im okay. to know that you still love me. right now, i dun feel like he even does anymore. he doesnt even freak out when my stalker screened the labs looking for me. or the fact that i even have a stalker.
i dunnolah. i seriously hate this feeling.
i dun believe anymore.
im born a failure.
iskandar dreamt of me.
i was pregnant. and didnt even know who the dad is.
freaky.
the end.