Thursday, March 27, 2008
fahrul msged. asked me to go over his house.
i so wanted to go.
but i was out with fadzli. darn.
"so how do you know she's the one?"
....cos she gives you butterflies in your stomach.
everytime you see her.
cos you think about her.
about her day.
what she's doing.
if she has eaten or not.
cos time is always a constraint.
enough is never enough.
when her perfume lingers.
and her touch stays warm.
and her kisses.
those kisses.
feels like the first.
unforgettable.
you do.
i love his entries. so emo. just like i am. he's my cousin's ex.
been there before. till something happened and everything changes.
such a waste.
a painful period that i will never forget.
how i wished it never happened. coz then i'll still be with someone i love for most of my life.
and be happy. but would he feel the same?
i opened my heart and many times, i get rejected.
heartbreaks after heartbreaks.
im so scared to love.
i still cry at night wondering why all of these happened.
why was i so stubborn when my heart still cared?
why did i go against something i believe in and know i'll get hurt in the end?
i wish i could go back in time. start over. how i really wish life will be so much better for me.
im just not happy right now. been months.
the end.