Friday, August 01, 2008
i'll never be able to look at you again.
too much painful memories.
my dreams shattered.
from the mistakes i made.
you tried so hard yet i was unrelenting.
holding on too much. insecure.
wasnt until i lost you that i realised.
the only one who understood me.
while the rest, made use of me.
but it was ego that killed me.
i'll never live to fulfill my dreams.
to be with my childhood sweetheart.
as much as i need someone in my life,
i know i'll never get that chance.
to feel loved. feel needed. to be taken care of.
im happy that u moved on.
i was a jinx. always have, always will be.
with me, it was all pain and suffering. and u were at the lowest point in life.
but with her, you managed to make something out of yourself.
and its always the same with everyone else.
dont expect me to turn up for any of my ex weddings.
i wont attend.
and i dont wanna date again.
i still believe in having one special person in life.
and so far, i have 4.
the end.